Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Milestones, Michaels, and Masochism

It's been a pretty awesome week! That week was capped off by me stepping on the scale this morning and seeing that I have now lost a grand total of 150 pounds since the end of last crazy is that?!? Most of the time the number of pounds I have lost is just that, a number. It's not like I'm constantly excited by it. But the reality of losing 150 lbs did hit me this morning. I mean, that is a really big number to lose in 10 months! So while I do not generally go around being impressed with myself (that could become annoying for others, plus irritating for me when my big head would no longer fit through doors), I will make an exception for today. I am very proud of myself for how far I have come in 10 months, not just for losing that weight, but for changing my entire way of life.

I was excited because this past week has been the ever elusive "perfect" week for me. I always aim to do as good a job as I can working out and eating right, but usually there are slip-ups. That's fine, but it is satisfying to do everything perfectly once in a while (it satiates the small remaining "all or nothing" part of me). This past week, I didn't slip up on my carb cycling at all, specifically on the low carb days. I had my cheat day, but didn't go crazy. I worked out for at least 2 hours every single day, except for my rest day. I did strength training every day, and even increased my weights (my arms are still killing me).  I got in enough water every single day (and consequently peed a million times a day). I kept my sodium levels down every single day. So when I weighed in today, I felt good! It was an added reward to hit 150 lbs lost this week too!

Also, I got to see Jillian Michaels in person this past week! Here is a crappy picture of her that I was a rebel and took even though there was not supposed to be flash photography (hey, everyone else was doing it too in the beginning):

Anyway, so I first saw that Jillian was going to be in Raleigh months ago but the tickets were listed as being $175! Now I love Jillian, but that just seemed ridiculous. But then last week I saw that there had been some kind of error where they only listed the VIP prices, so normal tickets were only $27. I couldn't pass that up. But it was kind of last minute, so I couldn't find any other Jillian fans to make the trip with me. So I went solo! This is something I would not have done last year. I was so concerned with what other people would think, if they would think it was weird I came alone, blah, blah, blah. That girl is no more. I don't have to have other people with me to give me confidence in myself. I mean, it's fun to go places with friends, but it's kind of cool to go places alone sometimes too.

So off I went to Raleigh last Thursday. Luckily, the place was not hard to find since I am kind of directionally challenged. The first half of the show was about diet and exercise. I felt pretty good about myself then, because a lot of what she was saying were exactly the same things I do already. The part about organic stuff was pretty eye-opening though. I was also kind of surprised to see that she was really funny! Like laugh out loud, kind of sarcastic (that part wasn't surprising) hilarious! Then the second part of the show was about maximizing your life (I didn't make that was the title of the show). This part was full of stuff that really hit home for me. Not letting fear rule your life. Pursuing what you love with "reckless abandon." To stop waiting to do things until you are  "good enough". To recognize that the heavy person I used to be had value, that she was the one who had the courage and dedication to start this weight loss journey. It was pretty awesome. I did have an urge to stand up and scream, "Please come train me! I need you to scream and yell and beat me until I puke!" Apparently I have a masochistic side.

Next week, I hope that I am alive to write a blog entry. I say that because I am traveling to Atlanta this weekend to train with former Biggest Loser contestant Lauren Lee and some of the people in my FB weight loss support group. I am super excited about it, but also pretty nervous. From what I have heard, Lauren's work-outs are no joke! Like so hard that people are literally lying on the floor half-dead at the end. The fact that I am excited about this is even more evidence of my masochistic side.

1 comment:

  1. I am so proud of my #1child-but I then I have always been proud of you! What I enjoy most about your weight loss is seeing you start to appreciate yourself and gain self-confidence. I love you, Kristen.
    Your mom